They're just not that into me.

..But what is and what should never be?


So today is sunday january 23. woot for that hey? woot for that. amen brother.


So this is my first blog in like..how fricken long. Im so bad at this being regular at blogging thing... like dear goodness is it really this hard to ramble like a crazy lady (which i happen to do for a couple hours a day on a normal basis anyways) and draw a picture on my computer which is all i really do anyways in my spare time? which i seem (HAHA i spelled it seam the first time.. silly silly silly sew sew silly) to have WAY too much of as of recently. BUT THE NEW THING ABOUT THIS IS! i have my own computer. YES CYBER FRIENDS. 
MY
OWN
COMPUTER.
in my room. IN MY ROOM. IN. MY. ROOM. am i rocking shit, or am i rocking shit?
cyber friends: ...
me: what... i asked a direct question... am i rocking shit?
cyber friends: uh..wow cassy. this is awkward
me: well..what? what do you mean?
cyber friends: well.. you have to know... its technically our fault...
me: what? what happened?
cyber friends: Cassy. we were under the impression that you... that you always had your own computer, and that it was always in your room.
me: oh.. oh. well. im sorry you didnt know that guys
cyber friends: yeah. cassy. it would have been nice if you would have let us know... you know we are CYBER friends.. key word... cyber.. kinda entails you have a computer. and you really arent successfully cyber if its not in your room...
me: i see
cyber friends: yeah.. but you know, we had fun while it lasted
me: really?
cyber friends: yeah totally. it was good. we..uh... we will call you sometime? soon?
me: if you think its best. 
cyber friends: alright.. well cassy its bee-
me: (interjecting) i just need you to know i was totally honest in every other aspect of our relationship.. you really meant the world to me and i jus-
cyber friends: (getting restless) cassy, cassy dont. not like this. please. not like this.
me: i just thought that it would be nice you know, if we could sta-
cyber friends: please cassy. save yourself some embarassment, its over. we arent meant to be together... not right now at least.




...wow
i think my fake internet friends just broke up with me. this. this is a little rough. what a way to start my night... 


anyways! today is a sunday, so i worked 630-230. which is just AWESOME on a weekend. and i realized! I WORKED FRIDAY SATURDAY AND SUNDAY! wooooo! you know its bad when you just VERY recently turned 20, and you dont even notice that youre working straight through a weekend. or that it was a weekend at all. (i need a computer chair...) yesterday i got called in to work at the other safeway. weird. weiiirrrddd, lets say they have different cleaning methods than we do at our store. it wasnt bad, they arent very busy so i found ways to occupy my time. which,( even though i was working with that INCREDIBLY sexy guy that works there.. like jesus.. he is hot. im thinking about making a move, i cant let that slip by,) were all completely G rated things, such as cleaning and more cleaning :)  then i went home, drank some soft ciders (YES, I DRINK NON ALCOHOLIC APPLE COOLERS. BECAUSE THEY TASTE LIKE BUBBLY APPLE JUICE AND THAT MAKES ME RIDICULOUSLY HAPPY. and that way i dont get drunk by accident) ate some amazing popcorn and watched a retarded amount of the fifth season of How I Met Your Mother, and waited for my phone to ring. but that children, is not a tale for this blog.


so my plan for the rest of this night, when i dont wake up early tomorrow at all is
cyber drum roll.. please..
TOTALLY NOTHING!
oh YUSSSSSS THATS WHAT I HOPE WAS GOING TO HAPPEN FOR THE UPTEENTH NIGHT IN A ROW! LIFE IS SOO SO SO SWEET, AND FULL OF SO MANY SURPRISES THAT SEEM TO JUST BLOW ME AWAY, REALLY EVERY TURN OF EACH CORNER IS JUST ENDLESS SURPRISE AND ADVENTURE.
oh my god i need a second job.
children. i dropped out of school.
and everyones first question is:
what? already?
and i say. yeah. already. and they say... why? so i say
i really wanted to get drunk.
so i did.
and ive moved on to new goals. found a program, and will be starting that in september. life can be good. 


anything else fellow cyber peeps? oh! my birthday! are you ready to hear about my wild night? seriously! it was CRAZY! i dont even remember half of it, because i was TOTALLY unconcious the whole time! i passed out waaaaay quicker than i should have. i just could not handle myself! like woah! and youre asking, woah cassy.. kudos! and im like.. yeah i know. so you ask... what was your poison? what were you drinking? shots? cocktails? drinking right out of the tequila bottle? and i say... well.. a version of that last one. yup. swigs right out of the bottle. of Nyquil. can you say PARTY ON BITCHES? 
me neither. 
i have not been that sick in over a year. and it incapacitated me. i did nothing... literally.  i got off work. went to bed. saw my mom for an hour, and then my boyfriend for another hour. it was shit.
but hey. thats okay. theres always next year. and then its my last one before the world decides to end. which i should consider myself lucky, cus my friend brendan? this year is his last. sucks to be your guys born in late december. my heart bleeds. on that topic. yup. i laugh in the face of the apocalypse. LAUGH.
anyways.
im listening to Rihanna. just thought you would want to know that.
i dont have music on my computer yet, so im browsing the jukebox cyber friends (or my cyber exes) like to call youtube. 


my plans for this week? sign up for chemistry, and then chill? im gonna snap by the end of the week. there may be many blogs. or not. dont wanna make any more empty promises. 


what do i like?
i like how tiny my computer mouse is
i like how a good song can distract me from what i'm saying
i like the little light on my blackberry that blinks when i have a message
i like cleaning for hours, uninterrupted
i like how cupcakes smell right before they're ready to come out of the oven


by the way. my tutu was awesome. 


random fact for january 23/2011
elephant penises can be up to 6.5 feet long. 

they are amazing. its a Diane special, check out her pub. oh and. guys. dont drink and draw...

anyways children. i should call it a night, it's only 8 and i have a whole night of nothing ahead of me! so until next time! adios!


love you guys!
<3






everybody, everybody just wanna fall in love.

i dont like kaiser buns

'cus i'll, i'll have you naked by the end of this song

OH MY GOODNESS LOYAL READERS! HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND MERRY NEW YEARS!!!

you wont eeeeven believe what happened to me FOUR TIMES! i wrote long ass drawn out blogs, and i managed to delete each of them, and you know whats exhausting? an hour of blogging. and you know what can't be forced? a blog. blog rape is something that i prefer not to take part in. beacuse then its just dry and painful. (heh heh)  

so! since i managed to pass right through all the important parts of december here it is:

I HOPE YOU ALL HAD SUPER AWESOME CHRISTMAS EVES, CHRISTMASES, BRENDANS BIRTHDAY, NEW YEARS AND NEW YEARS EVES. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

if i didnt cover something important... i dont apologize, youll get over it, disappointment is a natural part of life, like puberty or crossdressing

know what blows my mind? theres a lot of people in my life that im very "meh" about, i dont particularly like them, but i dont mind them, a fair number that get on my nerves, a few that really bother me, a couple that i cant stand, and one that i really really dont like. at all. not a single person that i hate. i dont believe that you can hate everything about one person. but i really dont like this person. i have no desire to meet said person. i dont want to breathe the same air as this individual. if i could go my whole life, never laying eyes on this person other than a photo here and there, i would be happy. i dont dwell on this person, i see no reason, out of sight out of mind. but when the topic is brought up, it wells inside of me like an angry volcano. i dont like the subject. and it surprises me that i can be like that. i consider myself a realist, i  dont dislike you until i am given a reason to, and that reason should be from you yourself, not judgement passed by others. but in this situation, you have been judged by me and i am not changing my mind. like i said, i have not met this person, i have never spoken to this person, i have not texted this person, i have not added this person on facebook, i havent even read a tweet, and i never plan to. 

ever.

today is DIANE PHILP's birthday! shes 22 today! yay! *cyber applause* so! tonight we are all going out! and since she's 22, its a tutu party. (HAHAHAHA GET IT?!?!?!?!) so we are all wearing tutus and hitting some pubs and bars. woot to life! i love my tutu, its cuter than a pea! seriously. peas are ashamed to let themselves be seen near it because they are ugly in comparison. so im gonna dress up and hopefully look ruuuhl cute ^^ im excited cus brendan has a tutu too! its black! and poofy! hehehe its probably pretty cute on, what a silly boy. i am sad that jeremy isnt joining us though. but thats okay. ill probably just embarrass him anyways. im a little silly. not like embarass as in falldown-puke-everywhere-makeout-with-girls-sit-on-the-curb-cry-in-the-bathroom, but embarrass as in im-silly-wearing-a-tutu-singing-songs-about-him-dancing-so-the-tutu-bounces. im a silly individual, and he would sit there and laugh at me, but i think he wouldnt be too up for claiming to be my boyfriend :p so its gonna be a good time! im excited, but will miss my wonderful boyfriend.

im sorry pea :( 

(ps. thats a broken heart. i dont have my tablet set up yet.. shut up)

with that said, heres a shout out to COURTNEY BROSSEAU who is also born today, although she is 20 today :)

so im not the kind of girl who plans out a wedding. never have been, never will be. when i plan my wedding, it will be because im getting married. not cus im fantasizing. if im having a little situation fantasy about my future its gonna be about me in my DODGE CHALLENGER with a sexy man, and 99 Problems playing and instead of exhaust comign out of my car its 100$ bills. but. that aside *wipes drool* i have planned that my wedding is going to take place at Pick-a-Part. yes, you heard me. the ceremony of course. doesnt matter where i live, thats where it will be. i will pay the employees for 3 hours for them to disappear for the ceremony, everyone will sit in the rows of cars, and it will be wild awesome. 

dont steal my idea. 

its the only wedding plan i have, and i would be sad if you took it from me. 

but to be honest. would a guy agree to that? would he care? he would have to like cars.

let me restate that... what female in her right mind would steal that idea from me?

word.

heres more things i like:

the way snow smells

brown eyes

the way jeff's sheep rug feels on my bare toes

when jeremy gets me to stand on his feet and walks me around

the way grass smells when im alone

i think i would be a wicked bartender. i should look into that. and then all y'all will be jealous. ya'huuuurrr?

im so gangsta, you should be frightened.

no but really. i think its something i would be good at. getting paid to get people all liquored up, but it would suck cus i would allllllways be working nights. and that would suck. but at the same time. you make your day what you make it. if i could work 70 hours a week and still manage to have time for friends while working day and night, i can work just nights :) plus it would be catfish awesome to be able to mix drinks. i would own shit.

 alright. well, it's almost 6, and i think im gonna have a quick nap before i go out (dont make fun of me... i need my rest. being this beautiful needs time and lots of sleep :p ) so im gonnaaaa

SLEEP!

GET CHANGED!

GO OUT!

yeeee!

random fact for jan 7/2011

my boyfriend is better looking than yours.

ps! its my birthday iinnn.... FOUR DAYS! i hope ya'll gots something planned for me! :p

i kiiid!

well. kind of.

love you guys!

<3