Watch out cupid, stuck me with a sickness, pull your little arrows out and let me live my life.

...everybody, everybody just wanna fall in love. everybody, everybody just wanna play the lead...
And then i stepped out of my class and some really tall guy stepped on my foot, and looked down then laughed and told me im too short and that my purple bow was cute. i glared at him, and thanked him for his compliment. he said his name was michael and that he was going to go to building C if i wanted to join him. i said, maybe next time mikey. so he walked away.
why didnt i join him? he was good enough looking, very tall, funny, nice eyes and charismatic.. so it wasn't that issue. there was just something vital missing, and i really dont mind.
so it's been.. almost a week! holyyy! i know youre all like SHIT! SHIT! I NEED MY CASSY FIX! DEAR LORD SHE BETTER BLOG SOON! have no fear! for i am here with my keyboard and ridiculously enlightening thoughts! *CYBER APPLAUSE*... *CYBER BOW*
shall i run through my week? YES I SHALL!
I cant remember Tuesday.. i worked.. and Wednesday was school! woot for school! i had an interesting time in history as usual. my history prof has to be THE cutest little man in the world. the only way i can describe him would be: male embodiment of hello kitty. no joke. he is a little old man who speaks impeccable Engrish. so well, that i predict i will be fluent in it by the end of the course. im forming a dictionary as i go of all the words that make me smile and squeak. which if you know me, i freak out and squeak at almost anything cute, so im a little noisy in my corner of the class. then i had my hour and a half between classes which i usually spend in or outside the cafeteria doing homework and readings for my next class. since i had to do my presentation (ON VAMPIRES, YEAH, VAMPIRES.)i was pretty much just drawing pictures of vampires for an hour and a half and talking to Gunther on msn. it was rad. 

in class zack came and bugged me for a bit before the prof showed up, and Chris and i had a kick ass time making racial slurs and writing notes to each other. i feel like im in middle school in that class. except for the fact that we learn about death rites, ghosts, magic and witchcraft. (and im actually interested in whats going on.. kay.. maybe its nothing like middle school except that doyle and i are incredibly immature)
after class i got to hang out with zack !ZACK IS AMAZING GUYS! SERIOUSLY! THIS KID MAKES MY DAY! LIKE.. i dot know how i went so long without spending time with him!! hes so funny and genuine! we get along like... tortilla chips and cheese, turkey and mashed potatoes, ice cream and chocolate, clouds and sky. its just fun times! and antonio joined us. which was a GOOD TIME, but i must admit, if there were two people i pictured myself spending time with.. i did NOT imagine itd be those two at the same time.. at all. it was awesome!
i eventually made it home, and that was good :) thursday i worked till 11 then started house sitting when i was off. friday i worked all day (booo) and then friday evening Jeff Jeremy and I watched Get him to the greek, and Iron man 2 (because i work at a movie store so i get to rent movies before they are released) and it was good! i always have fun with them! i really liked Get Him to the Greek, but not so much Ironman 2. Iunno.. just not feeling it, plus everyone who has come in for the last 3 months asking for it CAN SUCK IT! BECAUSE HOLY SHIT. ITS JUST A MOVIE, GET OVER IT! YOURE STARTING TO PISS ME OFF WITH ALL THESE QUESTIONS! JUST LIKE THOSE GIRLS THAT COME IN AND ASKED WHEN ECLIPSE IS OUT ON DVD, WHEN IT WAS STILL IN THEATERS! ARE YOU THAT DUMB?! SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?!?!?!?! LIKE HONESTLY, ITS A TERRIBLE SHOW (i apologize if i offend anyone with my blunt and extremly honest opinion of the twilight series)AND YOU SHOULD REALLY START DOING SOMETHING WITH YOURSELF INSTEAD OF HAVING WET DREAMS ABOUT SOME SPARKLY VAMPIRE AND SOME KID (although he does look good without a shirt on) THAT TURNS INTO A WOLF. GET OVER IT. that being said. i do like vampires and werewolves alike, just not the dumb highly popular ones that all the girls squeem over recently. 
le sigh.
yesterday was just.. kinda terrible. worked 10-3, so not bad! just.. lame. got to work with lucas! yay! then watched a crackhead get taken out! yay! then went for a walk with ross and abby! yay! then we made dinner and chilled yay! cus the wonderful one didnt hang out. noyay! but i got over it! to be honest though, i had a terrible sleep despite the gorgeous rain and was really quite grumpy and sad. grumpy sad night. even though i did talk to gunther until ridiculous times of the morning, good times :D

my dream job would honestly have to be a host for YTV's the Zone. you all watched it, you know what i mean. and i would seriously love that gig. that would be amazing
i would own that shit.
and then you could have me in your living room every weekday afternoon! DOES THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY?!?!? i hope so :)
i like the way cupcakes smell in the oven
i like the way his voice sounds
i like the way single granules of sugar look
i like hot showers that last a long time
i like the way mangoes smell

i know that youre tired of this, cus youre a robot and they designed your life. 
are you scared... are you scared?! ARE YOU SCARED?!


guys. guys. sad moment. Beauty and the Beast comes out in 9 days. 
can you hear that? listen closely... 
... hear that? thats my empty heart breaking.
and that? ....you hear that one?
that is the only tear i have left in my body spilling out of me and running down my cheek.
sometimes when im alone, i walk around in my heels. they are really nice and i love them. i just never have a reason to wear them.
my brother and his friends left like.. an hour ago.. they were going to bring me back diet coke and sour keys. i have a bad feeling they forgot about me..
seriously. today is a totally shitty day.
no joke.
im gonna peace, and pray for you guys that my tuesday's blog is better 
hah!
have a great night ladies and gentlemen!


(and you caught me off guard)

I like the way I feel when im with you

You know that feeling when you're asleep, and you're falling, then you twitch and wake up? yeah. me too.

I dont like hospitals, or doctors. Not because of the sick people, or the death, or anything like that, that doesnt bother me. i dont like how it seems like everything is scrubbed suuper clean. but i still dont want to eat there. theres just something icky about it. the lighting and the smell. Its worse to go to a hospital alone.
Today was quite a day! im glad to be back home! (well.. technically im not at my home.. but whatevs) a lot of running around and what not, no details today :P i know youre probably pretty choked about that, but no need to bore you to the ends of the earth!
I can talk to you about that staff party! woot! it really wasnt wild, i originally wasnt going to drink, but plans changed. i didnt drink a lot, i just didnt have anything to eat that day.. (unless you can recall that ever delicious and lifechanging treatzza pizza) so i was feeling it, but not shittered or anything, which is how i prefur it anways, because then i start saying and texting things that reeeaaally dont need to be put out there. if you can tell im a pretty open person..so the things i keep inside should really stay there. there was some karaoke.. well.. three of us did karaoke because SOME PEOPLE are waay too wimpy. "I DONT SING" OHHH suck it up, i shouldnt either, but i do anyways :P then i stayed at jared's place over night because im a responsible girl and i dont drink and drive *CYBER THUMBS UP!* aaand.. thats it. kinda sad hey? it was fun! just not an exciting story to tell.


when i was a kid, i thought that if you were paralized at the waist down, that if your hands were at your side you couldnt move them because they were below your waist.
my favourite movie was beauty and the beast. well.. kinda still is.. yeah. it totally is. the disney version of Beauty and the BEast is my favourite movie. im not going to deny it. and in october it comes OUT OF THE VAULT! THAT MOTHER LOVER IS COMING OUT OF THE VAULT! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MANY YEARS I HAVE BEEN WAITING?? my VHS version baarely plays anymore, and it actually seriously chokes me up. but want to know something else? something tragic? the dvd.. of beauty and the beast costs..
49.99
i dont have that. i cant afford that. and it seriously makes me sad all day. i was going to preorder it at work, i was soo excited!!! and then i saw the price and my heart dropped. im not a materialistic person, as in i like things! yes! but there are few things that i passionately want in life. and to be totally honest (its pathetic.. i know) that is one of them. it breaks my heart.
moving on.. im making myself sad.
i like simple things.
(ill add a few every time)
i like the way flowers curl up for night
i like the way the rain wakes me up very early in the morning
i like the way ice tinkles in an empty glass
i like the way a whole handful of marbles feel
i like the way leaves look like they sparkle in the wind


He is wonderful, and turns me to mush.

OH! so im super uber-tronically stoked for hallowe'en! CAN I GET A WHAT WHAT!! im having my staff party at my place, jeff and i are going to make it beautiful! we are going to start decorating when he gets back from his hunting trip! its going to be EPIC. but i have a problem. i have no idea what i want to be. CRISIS! CRISIS! CRISIS! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! i know youre like.. hey.. chill the fuck out cass! and im like NO! IT MUST BE EPIC! i have something to prove! im not sure what it is yet BUT ITS THERE AND I MUST PROVE IT! so some help would be appreciated in my brainstorming process. i dont want anything boring and normal. i like gore.. 

i need a way to make this blog interesting.. im pretty pooped out today, so i dont have much interesting-ness right now. i really just want some hotchocolate some yummy food, a bunch of good movies/tv (digging supernatural right now) and a few hours of cuddling. all i need in my house to make that complete is a boy and a kettle. 

my feature friend!
karly is a fantastic girl! she is like.. me. pretty much, not saying im fantastic (which for the record, i am) its strange, we have the same thoughts and actions.. and evverything. youre thinking.. shit theres more than one. and im saying, yup! yup there is! she is wonderful! not going to lie, every time that i talk to her i want to call her karly simon. STRANGELY ENOUGH! she took my baby simon (turtle not a baby) and they are happy together! YAAY!

sometimes when im hungry i dont even want to eat.

sorry about how LAMETASTIC this blog is! ill be feeling in a better, happier mood next time. dont judge the horrible ness of it all.
hope its not too dry, if so.. have some milk.
<3


Cassy's insight for september 20/2010:
john meyer sounds like he has a cucumber stuck up his butt.

No one wants to lose their youth in a trench like this

You know one of those days where NOTHING is going right, and the most ridiculous shit is happening to you, but youre still having a good day? no? thats okay, because i didnt think they existed until today..youre going to hear about my day. no.. you are going to be RAPED about my day. ready?
So i woke up really late because i had such a fantabulous evening that i let myself just stay unconscious. that was crazy. first off, i HATE waking up late on beautiful days like these. hate it. did you hear that? i hate it. i know your thinking.. hmm.. maybe she likes it a little? if so.. im sorry.. im sorry.. my reaction to you is a blank stare. annyyways, so i woke up really late and hated life. then had a shower *insert steamy shower scene here* except! that it wasnt steamy. yes, im still very attractive (hahaha aah haha..sad face..) there was only cold water.. and i mean like.. depths of the sea-transparent-deep water fish cold...it was rough. so i was soaking wet and threw on some "random running around the house clothes". and decided I WANT SOME PANCAKES! so. i reached to the top cupboard to get my mix. which to most people, itd be like cool.. no biggie. but im 5'4.. doesnt really bode well with 9'10 cupboards. (yeah... yeah you heard me.. my cupboards are almost ten feet tall.. you can suck it) so.. i dropped the mix on my head. no biggie right? BIG BIGGIE! my hair is soaking wet. i had pancake mix congealing on my head. sexy right? im standing there screaming and freaking out.. move on to the carpet and start tearing off my clothes... cool right? no. no not at all. i find myself in my underwear and pancake hair with all my windows open. in everyroom. im not even safe in my bedroom. if youve ever been in my apartment.. you see that my living room faces everyone else's living room. yay. awkward situation NOT averted. so i quickly re shower in the freezing water.. colder this time some how.. and realize.. that i was suppose to go cut my friends sisters hair! oh yay! and! i cant find my scissors! EVEN BETTER! so im scissorless and late! (ill wrap this shit up soon, dont worry) then, how i did this.. i dont know.. i fell in my bathroom and knocked my head on the toilet seat. im sure any of you who know me personally are not surprised what so ever of any of these happenings. 
Ross was a sweetheart and we went out and he bought me a new pair of haircutting scissors, so crisis averted! (ps, anyone want their haircut for free, give me a call im pretty decent and if you know me, im a perfectionist, you wont get a shitty haircut ) managed to slice my finger open while cutting her hair.. but haircut turned out great! 
then went home and ross and i ate a treatzza pizza from DQ. woot for healthy eating!!
now i am here blogging.. about my day. 
Tonight is my work party, and we are suppose to dress formal. me and formal.. dont mix. so im wearing what i wore to jeffs wedding. a nice little black dress and a lace cardigan. im just stoked that i get to wear that shit again. wont lie.. i looked pretty hot then. hopefully maybe its pretty decent tonight. if not, no biggie. they know me too well to expect me to look good.. i dont pull it off too well. Rachel informed me that a certain someone is going to show up in a suit. that sparked some interest, but we are going to pretend that it didnt. okay guys? secrets safe with you right? 
siigh.. i dunno guys. i dont know how much luck i have. i have friends who are all: you know what cassy! you can get any guy you want! and all i can say is GUYS! WHY ARE YOU SO FULL OF BULLSHIT? :) 
onnnn a different note.. Peas have to be the cutest vegetable in existance. like.. there is no other veggie in the world that makes me as happy as a little green pea. 
                                              this is how i picture peas.

even the sad guy on the bottom fills my heart with so much happiness that i can barely deal with it!
I dont like sleeping alone. for the reason that.. i sleep so much better with someone breathing beside me. i like the feeling that if i get up to go get some water.. im going back to a still warm bed. theres someone to cuddle and be safe with. and, if some crazy monster comes out from under my bed someone can protect me. or if bloody mary is there in my mirror looking scary as FUCK theres someone to laugh at me and smash the mirror. and as weird as it sounds, if the other person snores im set. that shit puts me out instantly.. i know.. dont judge.
on a seperate note..My friend Gunther is awesome. we have the most awesome conversations ever. its like.. psuedo-deep.. hilariously fantastic-ghostbusting-cheese eating-blowup doll punching-poke battle superb. Gunther and Cassy rule. i would have children with him simply so that there would be a superior race of insanely curly hair social outcast hilarious children running around the planet.
on that note.. i must go start to get myself hot.. heres to a more interesting entry next time

cassy's insight for september 18/2010
i think your eyes are gorgeous, and they melt my brain

ps. i will have some pictures of my party next time :P

i dont pump gas.. i pump you IN THE FACE

Welcome to my blog. although I am sure there may be few readers, i would assume those who do read, will read it often. im not saying you will, i am wishfully thinking because thats how I roll. and i roll hard. I'm not claiming to be like.. pavement roller hard rolling.. just im way too awesome and far too thug life to be a soft roller.

This evening was one of those perfect nights, rainy and cold and just so warm and wonderful inside! fantastic to cuddle up with ones sweetheart and watch just your favourite movie! hold hands, kiss a little, not all out shit, just the cute stuff. all nestled in your fuzzy favourite blanket with your hot cocoa and freshly popped popcorn that he went and bought because he know you love it so much, and he always thinks of tiny cute ways to surprise you and make you happy. you know? no? well me neither. shut the fuck up happy couples. if you nodded or "mhmm-ed" to any of that, i spit on your shoes and then roll them in dog poo.I wouldn't say i'm a bitter woman.. just.. you know.. what is that.. when you dont really like something, and you're very resentful towards something but pretend your not.. and kinda take it out on everything wonderful in life?.. no.. i cant think of the word now.
boys. i am very certain this is a topic i shall blog about often. do not feel terrified or awkward of this, for it shall be awesome. dont feel bad for having a jolly chuckle over my love life, if it brings happiness to someone, i sleep better at night. even though its alone. 
my day was terribly bland. i am currently taking care of my brother, which means i cannot leave my parents house..because i am watching him. (speaking of which.. i am sending him to bed) now if theres a ten things you should know about me they are:
1)i work a lot! between 50-70 hrs a week
2)i am generally in good spirits
3)i may act like a bitch, but chances are im totally faking it, and you totally know it
4)i can talk like a son of a bitch
5)i swear like a trucker
6)i love the simple things
7)my friends mean the world to me
8)i love being independant
9)im a relationship kinda girl
10) i love cars, trucks, vehicles in general
11) (bonus!) im a realist. (its like.. a positive pessimist...youll understand)
if you could tell.. sitting and staring at the wall is not on that list, i cant just sit down, so i talk to people, and they may hate it. because see point four.and honestly i feel terrible! i hate bugging people! so now that i am here, i shall bug my friends less. (or so they hope)where was i going.. right! so my day was terrible! cleaned out my car, which is wonderful because it was getting embarrassing, i like everything clean and to the point (haha dirty joke..) and my car wasnt that! so now its beautiful and i can smile when i sit in it. i also changed the air freshener. i love the scent of those vanilla air fresheners, like candy. and when mixed with the smell of mcdonalds (my dinner of choice today) it smells like pancakes. pancakes with just regular syrup.
as well as driving my car, i drove the parents dodge caravan, with a wheel chair conversion. can you say PIMP?!? i mobbed around chilliwack in that, wearing my pjs. i know i know.. youre thinking whaat! youre the kind of girl who would never do that! i know.. im a diva..

then what did i do the rest of the day? NOTHING. and not the wonderful rainbow making kind of nothing. the "sitting on facebook hating life wishing i was at work or in a midevil torture chamber" kind of nothing. so i did what every deahtly bored 19 year old woman does. texts the guy she has a thing for, i should stop doing that. its getting me no where. hes a great guy, really sweet, veeerry good looking, great career, funny.. awesome.. hot.. awesome... and... hot, BUT I DIGRESS.. as in.. i should never get bored, because it can bring me to reeeaaally bad spilling my guts moments, which i slightly averted *CYBER HIGH FIVE* ...i have a feeling no one returned that.... so i do stuff like this when im bored... edit photos..
                                              yes... im being a trekkie..

 
on another note, my awesome-sauce-fantastically-wonderful-bear-fighting friend Ryan is going to the pub tonight at his college. woot! woot! Ryan is prrreeeeetty awesome! messed up sense of humor which i thrive off of! this kid and i had the best biology times ever! well.. when it was about sex ;) he is currently there and having a blast.. i say he's picking up all the ladies and having a fantabulous time. even if he's not.. i say he is.. thusly.. it is true.


i am this far hoping i did not bore to death.. for i shall be back.. with bigger and better adventures to share with the people who may or may not give a shit! im going with may not! but there will be more
stay tuned..
staaaayyyy tuuuned
*insert everest college advertisement here*


                     my insight for september 16/2010
If i were a fruit or vegetable i would probably be a dragonfruit